Saturday, January 21, 2012
When I consider the work I am doing to excavate the depths of my soul, I am drawn to Ani DiFranco's lyrics, "When you sit right down in the middle of yourself you're gonna wanna have a comfortable chair." A year ago, the idea of spending time in self-reflection and exploration seemed very "new-age" or self-indulgent for me. I considered myself a thoughtful, insightful person. However, when faced with a series of events that shook the core of who I was, I began the task of turning over the stones in my psyche to see what lay underneath layers of doubt, shame, guilt, and fear. A friend asked me, "When do you know when you are done?" I couldn't answer her, but I do know for every realization, it feels like a layer is peeled away and I am getting closer to glimpsing the core of who I am. It is this process that called me to share what I am uncovering, discovering, and learning along the way.